In Santa Fe this July, I had the chance to talk a little with a professor who had also attended the retreat last year.
I asked, “Is the current medical system regenerative?”
The answer was NO.
Perhaps as the gap between what a doctor personally wishes to do and what the medical system requires them to do gradually widens, it becomes more and more difficult to continue working as a physician…
7月在圣达菲时，我有机会与去年也参加了那个静修营的老师稍微聊了一下。
我问这位老师：”现在的医疗系统是再生性的(regenerative)吗？”
得到的回答是否定的。
作为医生，当个人想做的事情与医疗制度要求医生必须做的事情之间产生鸿沟，且逐渐扩大时，继续从事医生工作可能会变得越来越困难…
Since my English isn’t very good, I know well enough that there’s no need to force myself to join a retreat held in the U.S.
However, by actually going there and participating, there might be some kind of change between who I was before and who I become after.
Until now, I think I’ve been dwelling on the past with regret, looking at the future with pessimism, and not really focusing.
我知道自己英语不好，其实没有必要勉强去参加在美国举行的静修活动。
但真的亲自去现场参加后，我发现似乎和参加之前相比，自身会发生一些变化。
过去的我总会因为回忆过去而后悔，想到未来而感到悲观，很少真正去思考当下。
This time, I used a ride-hailing app for the first time while abroad.
I was especially anxious when I had to go to Santa Fe Airport to catch my return flight, as it was 5 a.m. on a Sunday morning.
I was really worried whether the driver would actually come.
The thought of missing my flight made me extremely nervous. On top of that, I don’t speak English well…
But it turned out to be smoother than I expected, and I was very relieved.
最近首次尝试在海外使用打车软件。
回程时需要去圣达菲机场赶飞机，因为是周日早上5点，我特别担心车子会不会来不了。
一想到可能会误机，就坐立不安，心急如焚。
而且我英语还不好……不过最终整个过程比我想象的要顺利很多，松了一口气。
Following last year, I had the honor of participating once again in the retreat held in Santa Fe — for the second year in a row.
https://www.upaya.org/2025/05/inner-practice-of-medicine-blog-1/
It was truly a rare and unique opportunity, unlike anything else in the world, and I’m deeply grateful to have experienced it again this year.
Over the course of about four days, I lived and spent time from morning until night with people I had never met before. And yet, somehow, in this environment, I found myself opening up from the bottom of my heart — sharing thoughts and feelings I usually keep inside.
I wonder… are there any other places that feel this safe? It’s truly a mystery to me.
继去年之后，我连续第二年参加了在圣菲（Santa Fe）举行的静修活动。
https://www.upaya.org/2025/05/inner-practice-of-medicine-blog-1/
这是世界上独一无二、极其珍贵的机会，今年能够再次参加，我感到非常荣幸。
与完全初次相遇的人们一起，从早到晚，大约四天时间里同吃同住。
不知为何，我竟然能够将平时心中所想的真心话，发自内心地坦诚表达出来。 这样安全的场所，在其他地方还存在吗…我感到十分不可思议。
I went to a concert by two artists who had come to Japan from Brazil.
What surprised me was that the concert wasn’t advertised in the media at all—it was promoted solely through social media and word of mouth.
Even when I arrived at the venue, there weren’t any posters (surprisingly).
And yet, all 350 seats were completely filled.
去听了两位来自巴西的艺术家的音乐会。
但这场音乐会完全没有通过媒体进行宣传，仅仅依靠社交媒体和口碑传播来吸引观众。
到了会场后发现，甚至连海报都没有（震惊）。
即便如此，约350个座位还是坐得满满的。
